Happy New Year's

It seems like every now and then, I suddenly remember exactly why I called this blog "InsomniApnea" and currently my inordinate sleep patterns are taking a toll on me. I thought an all-nighter would've brought me back onto my sleeping regiment but I guess what I underestimated was that my body was incapable of taking that kind of punishment. I don't mean to kick a dead horse but I bet playing some Final Fantasy XII will lull me to sleep easily but since I do not have it on me at the moment, I'll just have to make due with some Saving Private Ryan. Because we all know watching people explode into fountains of blood and carnage can soothe anyone's nerves.

Speaking of exploding, HAPPY NEW YEARS...eve.

Yes, it isn't technically the new year yet but I won't be around to update the blog by that time because [here's a shocker] I have a life and the last thing I intend to do when the countdown reaches zero is to eagerly click on the "Publish Post" button like some friggin' low-life.

But before I ring in the New Year with you guys, I just want to recap the short lifespan of InsomniApnea. I'm quite glad Akira's joined forces with us ("us" meaning "me") and that he's shown his fervor to contributing to the fractious rants. I hope he can hold up his end and provide marvelous material and find something truly abominable and rip it to shreds so I won't have to.

Secondly, I want to comment about my video performances and perhaps it's just that I'm not suited for this kind of medium. I certainly hope that isn't the case because there are some things that cannot be expressed with words alone that one scowling look from me can give off. And second, it's a lot more terse and alleviating on the audience to just be able to press "play" and just watch me go off on my tirade than to sit through these odysseys of text [and yes, it is redundant that you are all forced to read this shit]

But to expand on that prospect, I just want to defend myself (although I don't have any detractors yet other than myself) that I can think plenty methodically behind the keyboard. I'm a writer first and foremost and I can conjure up words without effort if you just give me a paper and pen. Sure, the legibility of my words will be less comprehensible than Helen Keller's cursive when she's on LSD but fuck, I r teh smaartz.

And then comes the time when I have to act in front of the camera. Let's ignore the excuses that I did indeed have a whiny family member who was driving me bat-shit crazy at the time and that I am, without a doubt, consistently sleep deprived. Am I just not cut out to actually verbally express my words? I may be a codger with a few gaffes here and there but I suppose that's what makes my character unique in my own way. I'm not a terrible speaker and I rarely get stage freight.

Did I use a script?
No.

Is that the short answer for why I was just a rambling, stuttering klutz?
Yes.

So expect better from me. I suppose I'm just not cut out for ad lib.

With that out of the way, allow me to dispense your lack of credibility in me for my lack of functional equipment. Indeed, my PS3 is still on the shelf waiting for me to receive that shiny parcel with the new power supply. Let's just presume that that issue is already resolved. My desktop is still eternally fucked and the entire cognizance of my computer skills could not save it. Then again, using that same wisdom I deduced that the most cost effective method would be to abandon that desktop all together and purchase a new one. I might just be the frugal type or the sentimental type but that computer stuck with me for quite some time. I actually will miss that hunk of scrap metal. It's like Iron Giant all over again.

Not to be too sullen about the bad; now for the good. The video recording software has proven to be quite successful in its first tries and hasn't induced severe head-fracturing problems yet.

My camera is a tad outdated but I feel as though I always return to this discussion about the longevity of digital camera models and the pointlessness to be so wasteful about getting a new one simply because it has 0.1 more megapixels. Perhaps if I have the time and effort, I'll invest in a new camera but for now, I'll stick to what equipment I have and what I have is a decent camera, a decent tripod, and a decent microphone (which hasn't been used once yet).

It seems difficult to keep track of how long I go on these little written rants here because I'm constantly typing away, seldom stopping because I'm always on the ball when it comes to this. But I can already assume this is way past its readability limit and what started off as a "Happy New Years!" inevitably turned into my own medium to express my grievances.

Let me try to backtrack a bit then and go for something a little more relevant and in case you got bored and decided to scroll down, this may be a little softer on the eyes. I hope everyone has gotten their New Year's resolutions and constructed their list reasonably. It wouldn't be very sensible to deceive yourself like adding "I will not lie anymore" to it. No, that's not ironic. It'd be stupid.

Personally, my only resolutions are:

1) Obtain good grades ("hypocrite", you say? ...Fuck you)
2) Make this blog as presentable as possible with new and better updates
3) Finish the stack of tutorials and books which I have only grazed

And yes, I'm a good boy. I have to get good grades because it's the honorable thing to do and it has nothing to do with the I-am-Asian thing. It's more of a I-don't-want-to-work-at-Burger-King thing. I may be young but they say youth goes a long way.

Now don't get me wrong when I say this but academics will always come first and any lack of posts or videos can be attributed to my studies. That's not an invitation to burn down my university (which shall not be mentioned...in case I sparked any intrigue). Like I stated before, I enjoy expressing myself and sharing with everyone what I love and hate.

I've gone on long enough. Here's to you guys out there who may be supporting me. I'll only wish things get better and that I don't come off as just another wannabe critic.

Am I desperate for attention?
No.

Am I just doing this because it provides me joy?
Yes.

Am I in it for the money?
What money? You mean I can get money for this?!

Bah, I'm done.

HAPPY NEW YEARS!!